Whether it is making medical decisions for your child or sewing the straps on a dance costume, motherhood lately seems to be an exercise in seeing just how inadequate the universe can make me feel.
Juggling it all has become a challenge, I am feeling that while I may not be failing – I am definitely far from successful at anything going on in my life. On a good day, I seem to be okay at a lot of different things. I miss being good – being the best – working up to my potential as they say.
The busy season at work and the needs of my family take up all of my time. There are only so many hours in the day and sacrifices are made in an attempt to do it all. I think that I am losing “me” in the chaos.