After some recent posts and some really difficult days, I have been asked by multiple people to find the positive, to be positive, to write something positive.
I know that there are people in my life that are worried that the anger, stress and yes, the negativity may be spilling over onto Harry & Genevieve. While I am far from the perfect mom; I do know that I am a good mom. I would do absolutely anything for my babies. I will not lie to them so they are aware of what is coming in January. While they can sense the stress and tension and this is also hanging over their heads; for the most part they are just being 7 year olds. Excited for Christmas and school vacation.
The positive is their infectious laughter at the dinner table. One gets the other going and then we lose all control. It’s when Harry cracks up because the player on Wheel of Fortune is named “Dick” – shouting out “you know like dick” as he laughs hysterically and points to himself in the way that 7 year old boys love their silly potty humor. It is when Genevieve decides to wear a Star Wars dress to school because she earned a “no uniform coupon” for good behavior. It is the confidence to be the talk of the school twirling around in her storm trooper tutu against a sea of navy blue pants and white polos. In this, I know that we are doing something right.
So, yes – I am still struggling with finding the Christmas spirit. That has not changed. I know that I do have so many positives in my life and I make my way through the bad days because Harry and Genevieve are my everything. Blessed and we have got this.